Back from the olympics.....World Champs...but i got so much more then that...

YOOOOOOYOOOOO ppl of the world, it has been a few days since i last blogged..haha sorry..been a way in xiamen for competition and alll....haha...real emotional roller coaster..and as you guessed it we came back as World Champions..but the truth is i learnt so much more then just that..i made several new friends whom i never dreamt i would have the chance to meet. Its funny sometimes how things work...

I guess on the surface leading the choir to become the best in the world seems to be the pinnacle of achievement for any Student conductor, but i tell you the truth, the true achievement was not in the result but in the process. I have to admit that much of the credit of this feat cannot be attributed to me as i have done little as an SC. In fact recognition must be given to all those ppl who worked and slogged tirelessly for the cause like all the SLs and the junior student conductors...As this will be my last blog entry as a student conductor, i shall use this opp to thank all the ppl along the way that have helped to make me a better person and AJ choir a better choir...

In no order, firstly, BAss section leader malcolm, thanks for all your support throughout this ardous journey and i know that the bass section can be very difficult to take at times with the problems alternating between poor singing and politics, its been hard and for that i thank you..you have done a splendid job. More than this i would like to thank you for the quiet support you have given to me during my tenure as an SC. Just like to let you know that i know what you have done for me and you have my eternal gratitude...any problems feel free to call...i'll be there to help you...

SEcondly, Ding Jie, thanks for all your help especially towards the end of the journey. You helped with all the combines and all and i must really thank you for being the conconcience of the choir, always ready to step in and rectify the problem whenever neccessary. I must be honest and confess that there were times last year where i wasnt your biggest fan but that's all changed, you can be caring and sensitive whenever you want to and when you do, you make the ppl round you feel special. You are a great SL and friend no matter what pple say..so keep your head up and feel proud of what you have achieved...you deserve every bit of the glory.

Third, Zi nuan and Bel..thanks for all the perserverance and effort for the alto section. Its been tough but you all have done a splendid job in mantaining order and of course the high standards in the alto section..haha...great work, your dedication and caring qualities have not gone un noticed and i would like to applaude you for the effort. Choir would not have been half as good without your in put.

Fourth, huiying, xin yi, xing ying and yen yen, thanks for all the hard work you all have put in. Always asking me how to improve the section..haha...you all are doing great, sure can one lah..ahha..i have faith in you all, you all have tons of potential in your section, and you all have the ability to unlock that potential, so use it..k?haha...

Fifth, junior SC, jing kang, to be totally honest, AJ choir's progress is due largely to your excercises and not mine..so i guess you should claim most of the credit for the success..hehe...but i hog the glory anyway as usual..but thanks for all the help way back to march where you help me analyse the songs..you didnt even know you would get a chance to be SC..but god works in crazy ways..i knew back then that you would make a great SC so hey..must jia you k?
i know this job is a tough for you but hey, gd stuff are always worth the effort. God put you here for a reason and dont deny others a chance to share your talent..thanks for also being a friend in times of need, many a times when i had no one to turn to u spared your time and that means alot to me. Cant really find adequate words to thank you for all the help that you ahve given me throughout the course of the year, you have already surpassed what i can ever hope of achieving yet you beared with my incompetencies..for which i thank you..

Lastly, i would like to thank all the juniors that have helped me during xiamen. Thanks to Zhan Yong(thomas) for all the laughs and of course thanks for your help when i was hungry..hehe...thanks alot...you are a great kid, one of the basses with immense potential..jiayou and go for it..haha..always supported me and encouraged me on whenever i had prob...thanks man..really appreciate it...Thanks also to aloy, haha...had quite a bad impression of you over the holland thing but xiamen really opened my eyes to a different you..thanks for all thefun, the rubbish and alll...haha...most importantly thanks for being a friend, really enjoyed the Mac with you..hehe...we should do it again sometime soon..hehe..but i see a very strong character in you which i admire...alot..i dont say that about alot of ppl...so feel honoured...hehe..kidding lah...nothing to feel honoured abt lah..i owe you alot from this trip and you are a man of god so keep it that way....haha...i am sure god will continue to bless you in many ways...

hahah..so i'm done...if i missed out anyone it is not because i hate you or anything..its the giddness of my headache so forgive me...it has been a crazy year for me and i can only say one thing..i realised this a little too late but the only advice i can give is that in whateva you do trust in the lord for he is the only one who can help you...i can give you advice..pple can givey ou advice but it may not work unless you devote your life to god ...whole heartedly to god...the future of the choir could not be in safer hands...that i believe with all my heart..so go out there and be the best you can be...you have my support always...just as Aj choir will always remain in my heart...

un dieu beniessent toujours
may god bless you always...

my bdae tml...2 days to xiamen...oh well...

Today was the last prac at AJ choir room as an official Aj choir member..haha..luke sim came back and we kinda reminiescent abt the old times haha..really cool that dude...best singer i know..still so modest..oh well i guess some ppl have everything..haha...i kinda felt really sad and happy at the same time, this past year has flown by so fast and so furious that i realised i never had the time to sit down and think..i kinda missed all those times and every one has played a part in shaping and moulding my life..thanks guys..

Anyway, today we performed for some teachers and they loved it..i guess it was really not bad today and i'll like to say jiayou AJ choir..haha...sorry really tired and all cant really think..just finished laying out all my clothes...wanted to pon tml but cannot lor..haiz..parents dont allow...but that will be a story for another time..hehe..not sure abt my plan for my bdae tml either..can someone enlighten me pls...oh well...i have got really nice presents this year...haha...mr bean bear....thanks..haha...but anyway...its the thought that counts i think...cause after 5o yrs the thing may have disintergrated and all but the thought, the memory still leaves on...get it?...no?..well that's just too bad...oh well....haha...nothing more really to say..just rambling on randomly...haha...busy i am...haiz....its a conspiracy to kill us all....why?!!!....haha....aiyah hope xiamen has internet, then i can update you all ....hehe..not like you all will care..oh well...tml can be the best birthday ever, or it could be the worst...i am not sure...hope its the former...but that's god's will...take care all of you...its an order...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

AJ choir....be strong..

Dear fellow choir members,

As xiamen dawns upon us in a matter of days i would like to take this opportunity to speak to you all. Before i start i would like to get a few things striaght first... i am really honoured, happy and thankful to be able to lead you all through this amazing journey to the choir olympics..you have all taught me valuable lessons on life and of course on music. Some of you i have only known this year others since last year but that is inconsequencial..

It has come to my attention that on a number of your blogs you have all been expressing a certain amount of "sianess" so to speak. I would like to take this chance to encourage you to press on. Rmb the time you first stepped into AJ choir room..remember the stench of the seniors' feet..remember the nervous faces as they were abt to go for audition and hopefully you rmb me...hehe..the noisy and silly SC..hehe..jking lah...what i am trying to say is to remember the freshness and the enthusiasm that you all experienced when you all stepped into the choir room..the anticipation of what the future brings and more importantly the hope of a better tml..i know that practicing the same 4 songs over and over again can get boring and can cause you to lose your feelings..but i pray that you will press on..because you all have a purpose, maybe our purposes in life are different, maybe god will take us down different paths but for now we are here together and we meet along the same road towards success in music...

I dont know abt you, but the concert felt so long ago, haha...i guess time flies when you are having fun, but pls remember all the experiences that we have shared as aj choir 2006..the pain, joy, laughter and tears....dont let your head go down because you all did not come so far just to give up. Just like when the germans bombarded british soil, the brits nvr gave up...even when they were tired, they nvr did give up and it is imperative that every single one of you must have that same "nvr say die" attitude..

As for your music, i ask just one thing of all of you...dont think abt the scores...but think abt the meaning of the songs..why were they composed and what is the msg that it is trying to say..this is something only you can do and it is essential if you want to touch lives...i know that for most of you(correct me if i am wrong) Shi ma e is no longer as good as it was because it is hard to feel sad all the time..but let me tell you something...we will only be sad for 2 to 3 more times b4 the competition so try...maybe this will help...imagine someone really close to you...your friends or your family, leaves you and treats you like dirt, ignoring you and all..and every single day you are trying to search for that love that was once there but you just cant seem to replicate it no matter how hard you try...this is, i think, the kind of emotion that has to be depicted whenever you sing Shi ma e...

Pls also take care of yourselves...you are all losing your voices and there is only 1 truly useful remedy...SLP WELL!!!...pls do that...if not all your effort will amount to nought...which is really silly if you think abt it..

Lastly, i'll just like to say that whatever happens, you all are winners..so behave like one..go up to the stage and sing your hearts out(with the correct stuff and all) AJ choir has come a long way but the journey is not over...so reach for the stars...and most importantly always enjoy the music...


your friend and fellow choir member

shaun lee

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

Coming of age....is that what i want...?

hi hi ppl of the world....guess what day is it this friday...for those ninnies who have forgotten, it is the 21st of july my birthday...haha...the bad thing is i still have school and the nxt day i have to wake up at 3 just to get to the airport for the biggest competition of my life...but hey it could have been worst...hope to spend it with my friends and family...if they rmb...(my friends of course...hehe)

Anyways...my 18 birthday also marks a coming of age for me..not saying i will change dramatically after fri but in a symbolic way..hehe..it also kinda marks the last bdae that i will be celebrating as a school going person..hehe..so i really hope it will be the best yet..18 yrs..whoo...what a long time it seemed like ages ago when i last celebrated my birthday...i guess the year flew by so fast with choir, school and all that i feel that i years have past...perhaps its just me being silly...hehe...i realised that day that what i have gone through in this 18 yrs are things that some ppl wouldnt even hope to experience in a lifetime...i have tasted all types of emotions be it good or bad..i have tasted the worst of failures and the sweetest of successes...made the best of friends and worst of enemies...haha..but that is what makes life interesting..and i wouldnt trade it for anything in the world..not a single second..

So today, pls bear with me, but i shall like to thank the ppl that have helped make this 18 yrs all that special...in no particular order. First...my parents...hey say what you like but i think they are the coolest parents on the planet..which parents allows you to go slp overs as you wish..even on school nights..haha...which parents are as supportive when it comes to my endeavours..haah...second, my brother, joseph, haha...you may pissed me off 99.9% of the time but that 1% that you dont makes it very special...haha....so i'll give you a little credit for that. Plus you teach me how to patient..haha.

third, i'll like to thank my former tuition teacher, aunty dawn. You have thought me everything i know about leadership, abt how to be a good leader and most importantly how to be a god fearing individual who loves god..thanks a million..i'll nvr forget your lessons that you gave me and how they have really changed my life..

fourth, all my tuition friends who at that time helped me and shaped me to become the leader i am today. Thanks for all the times we played soccer together, studied together and of course had those "competitions" i feel honoured that all of you gave me the opportunity to lead you all and am eternally gratful for the support that you have given me over the 2 yrs we knew each other...thanks...

Fifth, All my classmates and school mates in ZHSS..a special shout out to by dear friend yi qin, i still have that metal chain you gave me..thanks for all the times you wasted listening to my crap and i will always be open to your opinions and suggestions..however blunt they may be...hehe...also like to give special mention to my mentor and dear sister in christ, michelle..we have known each other since sec 1 haha...those were the times..must really thank you for being there for me always and helping me with all my problems...cant believe it has been 6 yrs already..how time flies..but i couldnt think of anyone i rather have as my friend then you..haha...remember the times we emceed together and that time at the edusave awards where we sang hillsongs in the dressing room and our legs lost their feeling from standing for so long..hehe...oh well, i kinda always forget your bdae but you nvr forget my...hehe...kinda feeling bad right now but friends forgive right?....kidding lah..try to make it up to you sometime.

sixth, my choir mates, luke, hanquan, malcolm, ding jie, mark tan, yt, yl, lala and zx...thanks for making my choir experience as amazing as humanly possible....thanks..haha..i know there were times where i was being really difficult and all but you stuck by me and even defended me when the need arose..thanks...haha..sorry hq i keep calling you fat, but you are what beijing 101, haha..just jking..dont worry lah..you sure can slim down eventually(may be in 2 milenia) Yl you must really try to GROW UP literally...hehe...still need student pass ah...for luke and mark..thanks for all the guidance and help to make my assimilation into choir as painless as possible. To mark tan, i want to thank you for giving me this chance to be an SC..been one of the best experiences in my life..haha..to dj, thank you for bearing with my incompetence at times and all and to zx and lala...haha..thanks for all the fun joy and laughter along the way..hehe...cant imagine choir would be half as fun without you 2..lastly, yt and moley kor kor..haha...crazy nuts..that's all i can say..hehe...

sorry its so long but i only have 4 more grps of pple to thank...haha..7th, all the JC1s...thanks for all the help that you all have given me as an SC and thanks for your concern when i was down...really appreciate it...thanks..hehe..big mama...and his boy friend clay aiken..haha..you two are really funny and all..botherign absolutely nuts...hehe...thanks joey for your invaluable help..haah..you're a deep person..

8th, my 2 "sisters" ht and belly...haha...thanks for being there for me and having lots of fun...piglet...hehe...you hor always thinking of ways to lose weight,hah i think you look perfect the way you are..you are always happy and that is a good thing...stay that way...dont ever change..hehe...to bel, thanks for all your patience and guidance and all..great listener...haha..but i guess i really need to learn to listen more and talk less..sorry abt that...haha..but thanks for telling me...shocking but it worked so thanks..thanks alot for your help...stop worrying abt certain things...like a certain boy who is already attached.."ahem"...dont be sad...haha...

9th, my best bud and brother in christ, JK. Thanks for all the help you have given me in helping me become a better SC...sorry i kinda sabo you to be SC...haha..sorry..but hey its all in the spirit of learning..hehe..i really want to thank you for listening to my probs however silly they may seem and givning me your honest opinion on issues....lots of fun having you in choir...haha..just so childish...and silly...elohsssa...toidi...try to be more childlike k?...stop worrying so much abt choir..not much time left for me to teach you but hey...you still have the best teacher in the world..god..so use him...pray...the holy guy havent call yet ah...hehe...

finally at the top of my honour roll...is the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end, the almighty god...haha..who were you expecting..thank you god for being there for me and for placing all the above ppl in my life to make this 18 yrs so fun and special, thank you for comforting me when i am down and lifting me higher when i am up..thanks...

These 18 yrs have been a blast...if the rest of my life is half as interesting as my first 18 then i can consider myself really blessed...haha...really...for all those ppl who i may have missed out, sorry..haha..but know that you have really made a diff in my life...thanks...again to one and all...

Go, aj choir...haha....!!!!!!!

An apology....that should have been said a long time ago...

To:whoever it may concern...(u know who you are)

i just want to say i'm sorry...for everything..for wasting your time when you should have been using it to study with my stupid problems; For not being a good enough friend to you in your times of need. i guess i am just lousy at comforting ppl, only good at breaking their spirits..for that i am sorry.

I remember there was a time not to long ago when everything was fine and all..we were best of friends and there was nothing in the world we couldnt talk abt..but now because of my immense stupidity that is no longer so. Einstein is right..."there are two infinite things..the universe and human stupidity, i'm not so sure abt the former." For all the silly things i have done u nvr judged or hated me, neither did you find me a burden..but i guess i am just childish..as what my pastor said...bearing of grudges and being angry over silly things..i guess i have to be a little more childlike..forgiving and humble...

I nvr meant to scold you at any point in time and sometimes my anger can get the better of me and i will say things i dont exactly mean. Maybe i am wrong but, i wont blame you even if you hate me and all, it is justified as i probably deserve it. Words cannot sufficiently express how sorry i am...how bad i feel...i didnt mean half the things i said to you, honesty is important but what i did was to make you feel bad and that was not what friends should do..not now not ever. Manipulation is a sin and there is no excuse in the world that can justify such an action.

Please dont ever think that i hate you or am disappointed in you, because i am not. Your abilities leave nothing to be desired and i think you will grow and learn in time. In fact if there is anyone who i should be disappointed in, it is myself. You have done nothing wrong. I am really at a lost for words now and i pray that you will be able to get the gist of what i am saying...words hurt and i know that..but yet i used them carelessly...i'm sorry..

Lastly, i just want you to know that i will support you always and be willing to help you regardless the consequences...i dont mind..but i pray you tell me some of your probs and give me a second chance to be a friend to you...i'm sorry...sincerely hope that you can forgive me...but if you dont want to be my friend i totally understand...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

u An interesting story to share...see what you make of it...

today i met up with an old friend, we sat down and chatted and talked abt some stuff...the person was really troubled abt a prob..she told me abt her friend back in school that she felt quite pissed with..she said that she tried everything to help the person in every and any possible way but the person was not willing to reciprocate. Everytime there was something that the person wanted, or needed, she would be the first to offer help and assistance, even if it meant inconvieniecing her. But when my friend asked for the slightest of help, the person was the first to distance herself from the prob...vexed she was...poor thing...she kept thinking hey maybe she has her reasons..but the more it seems that the person was just intent on doing what makes her life the most comfortable and easy, not placing my friends welfare above her own..she said she didnt need her friend's life to revolve round her, just felt that sometimes you have got to make sacrifices as well...i cant say i disagree with her..she brought up a particularly valid point abt how if you do things only when you are convienent you are not a gd friend..cause like that anyone can be a good friend. A gd friend is one who goes over and above the call of duty to help the person..regardless of the circumstances...studies may be one thing..but if you are not willing to make that kind of sacrifice then should you two even be friends...that's what i told her...

The thing that made my friend the saddest was that she had absolutely no way of telling her friend that. Rmb in my earlier post i said sometimes things can be awkward even among the best of friends and this was one of them. She tried once and the friend promised to change but nothing happened....so how to be more patient...?

i think that when things happen like that..its really difficult to be understanding to the other party. i mean you tried talking to her and tried to clarify it with her but to no avail. Sometimes you can try to be as understanding as you can but if they dont want to change there is nothing you can do or say that will change that..you have done your best....maybe its time to look for a new friend..pronto...to this person if you are reading this...let me tell you something..you had a chance..in fact many chances to save it but you blew them one by one...life is abt choices...you made a choice to ditch ppl and so you must bear the consequence of not having that person as a friend anymore...worse still u have to make the other person bear the consequence along with you...its hard...whoever this person is...i hope you will reflect...

anyway today my friends came to celebrate my b dae with me...thanks to wei sheng, jin yong, xavier, alfred, liang hock , yi long and chris..you really made this a very special bdae i will nvr forget..haha...i loved the shirt and the Mr Bean bear...suits me seeing as in i am such a Bean like person..haha..thanks a million you guys are the best friends in the world..had lots of fun..hehe...sorry that i sucked at pool...i'll improve..

tired...but hey xiamen's in a wks time...whoo...go AJ choir...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

a tribute.....to a friend....

dear friend,

Still rmb the first time we kinda got to know each other..haha..over this journey of choir we have met with countless obstacles...there were times i admit that i hated you so much....but yet there were times where we were tight. Haha...i know you are going through a tough time so hey...here is my tribute to you..hope you will feel better...

You have been a real sport in choir and all and i really enjoy singing alongside you...dont always give you credit for it but heh..you have got a unique voice( make whateva you want out of it..but i mean it in the best possible way) ahah...Just been lots of fun. As i write this i think of all the times in choir where we joked we laughed, we cried and we hung in there when things werent going well...haha...

There are certain ppl who will just remain as seaweed in my life...but you are certainly not one of them, you have always been a constant support to the ppl around you and have certainly made a difference in my life...haha...i know the situation now can be daunting and all but you have just got to stick it to it..dont do it because you have a responsibilty to the choir but do it because you have a duty to yourself to make the most of your life..i have always believed nvr live in regret..perhaps you are not a christian yet so you may not get what i am saying but i'll say it anyway..god will nvr give you something you cannot handle and god will always be there to help you to guide you and make your path striaght...now it may seem impossible, but nothing is impossible when i comes to god...i implore you to have a little faith...for your sake...

Also, you must know how important you are to me as a friend because i mentioned you in my blog(hehe) i know that it is hard..trust me i really do and i have been through all that you have been through and more but really try hard to find that strength within you to go on...the end is near...

Lastly, i just want to say take this time to weigh your options..what ever your choice is i will respect it and support you regardless the consequence..you may not want to confide in me but i just want you to know that we'll be there for you always...if you need a shoulder to cry, a place to vent your anger or just a ear to listen...i'm there...so cheer up k? its hard but hang in there....i'll keep u in my prayers always...you have always been a fighter so stay that way...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

YoYo...what's up ppl of the world. To anyone feeling sad out there, dont be...tml will be a better day and there are lots of things in the world to look forward too..if it makes you feel any better, know that your friends will always be there to support and lend a hand when ever neccessary...hehe...

haiz...one of my last choir practices as student conductor..haha..it's really kinda sad that it will be ending soon, this journey of music. It has been an amazing journey for me from non choir member to singer to student conductor. I still remembered the first time i stepped into the AJ choir room. Believe it or not, mark tan looked really imposing and all and i was kinda scared that i wouldnt make the grade...haha...1 and half yr on, look where i am..it has really been god's grace all the way. He has guided me when i was lost and lifted me up when i was down. It is a really pity that i have rediscovered my love for choir when there are only so few prac left...but hey at least i can treasure all these remainding practices and all. There is just one major downside to this---when i am into something i take charge of all aspects of it..regardless of who i am working with. I guess this has been a major flaw for me..but as they say if you want things done well do it yourself. The nxt comment i am going to make may get me killed or hated for the rest of my life but in the name of freedom of speech i shall say it anyway. I think that sometimes we are not giving our music leadership enough respect..and i am not meaning the SCs..you know what i mean. The truth is sometimes he can be abit queer in the way he handles things but what he does works and we should just follow him..ask yourselves how many of you treat him more then just an teaching tool..he is a human being you know...as long as he has not done anything to you you all should not be so weak minded as to be swayed by popular opinion...i detest that...if you have experienced it yourself then i have nothing to say...but if not..it is better to keep it to your stupid selves and reflect..especially those in high places....no offence..

The future for choir holds many potential pitfalls and all, but i can tell you that the student conductor's job is the most fulfilling and wonderful job in the world. You are like the face of the choir...seemingly glamorous but haha....still water runs deep....Ppl may hate you,. you may be in difficult positions and sometimes it is up to u to play mediator..so what..the things and experiences you can get out from it are priceless and you will treasure it for life..some of you may be wondering how do you choose a student conductor....hehe....since i am going soon i might as well be frank...there must be several criteria that have to be met before one can become a student conductor...

1. must be patient--always willing teach a person and not get angry and help the person no matter how trying the person may be.
2. Must have ppl skills---i have nvr believed in the stuff it down your mouth leadership style and i believe that pple should listen to a leader out of free will rather then out of fear
3. Musical competency---must know how to see the chords and play the piano...it is not a must (i'm an example) but it is prefered
4. Must feel for music and love it---SCs are the pple who will direct the musicality in the absence of the conductor himself..if he/she cannot see or portray the feelings required then how can the choir get it?...i wonder..
5. MUST BE READY TO TAKE ONE FOR THE TEAM---sometimes instructors flare up, it is up to the SC to be the go betweeen to try to make things better even if it means getting scolded for the choir even though it may not be your fault...
6. Willing to learn---you are nvr too good to learn, the moment you stop learning you will fall back and the choir will suffer because of that..
7. READy to lead---there are times where morale and all are low and it is up to you to kick the choir into shape..
8. Lastly, Must be strong minded and loyal---you will meet ppl who disagree with you and may even hate you for that..but u have to be strong and make sure you believe in yourself enough to make it work..that is decisivness...loyalty to the choir and to the pple around you..this will ensure that they are more willing to do as you say and that the pple around you who supported through times of trouble will not feel that you use them merely as a springboard to your success...this is detrimental to the choir....

As you can see that musical competency is only but one of many other criteria to me choosing one as an SC..knowing how to speak well is not even one my considerations because if you refer to one of my earlier post you can tell that there is the quiet understated leader and that is the type that i respect the most...again these are things that you can agree to disagree to ....but i believe that you will find them largely relevant to the job of a SC...be warned that there will be times where the conductor or the choir will not have absolute faith in you but hang in there...nvr give up..

As the torch will be passed on from me to the nxt SC...i wish him all the best in the future endeavours..you will become a greater SC then i will ever be....but try to learn as much as you can in the remainding 2 wks of choir left..although there is not much time but you nvr know when it may come in handy..i may not be able to teach you everything and all..apologise..sorry...hehe...

Some of you keep saying that i am too depressing...hey...today's entry is not meant to be that way so cheer up ppl....what is wrong with all of you?!...perhaps cause my gp is too lousy and i lack sufficient knowledge of the nuances of the english language but it's not my fault so dont blame me....haah...(actually i dont really care what you think anyway..just pretending to...)
btw, hope you guys enjoy CHMA...WHOOOOO!!!!!(ipod nano)....

In 2wks i may no longer be SC but i will still always be part of AJ choir...long live the revolution....


un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

YO!...what's up with your lives? Haha..thanks for all those who posed tags on my blog..thanks a million it really means alot that you all said what you said and it has really helped me to feel lots better..hhaa..since i have nothing of really importance today i shall delve abit into why i was feeling so horrible.

To be totally honest with you, it boiled down to 2 simple things...not feeling appreciated for what i have been doing and also the fact that i have not been able to make a difference in ppl's lives. First, i guess it was from the devil and all, but i felt that i was not being appreciated by the ppl in my life. I felt like i was this lackey that they could and would order around at will. But when i asked of them things they would just diss me and all...haha...but i realised that all this was the work of the devil!!!! oh well, not me actually but someone pointed it out and i am thankful. Cause you think abt it, friends should do things for friends out of the kindness of one's heart and not because of the need for gratification...so oh well, one shouldnt be so calculative and all...haha...

Second, i felt that i wasnt making a difference in ppl's lives at all..in fact i was making it worst..this was kinda guilt tripping me...you all know the song u raise me up...

"When i am down and oh my soul so weary, when troubles come and my heart burdened be,
when i am still and wait here in the silence, until you come and sit awhile with me

you raise me up so i can stand on mountains, you raise me up to walk on stormy seas
i am strong when i am on your shoulders, you raise me up to more then i can be."

yah anyway the thing was i wished i had made a difference in someone's life to the extent that i would be the person to raise him or her up. but i realised at that time that i was just not good enough..ahah...but ytd, thanks to a close friend, i got a msg from god. It doesnt matter if i think that i have not made a difference in someone's life, it is up to god to decide. He has, through me, done his work. I have become a vessel to spread the word of god to others...i have, because of him, given others the gift of eternal life..something that no one or no thing can every measure up. Fifty, sixty, seventy years from now when i look back i can proudly say i have made a difference, i have helped one more into the kingdom of god..thanks god for that revelation and thanks to my friend who was there for me when i needed it most and for your undying support..thanks...

God also taught me one impt lesson. It matters not if the ppl of this world do not appreciate u or show that you mean anything to them, because all that matters is that god appreciates you , god acknowledges you and appreciates you. I know this is DEFINATELY 100% true..why you may say...cause if god didnt think i meant anything to him would he send his only begotten son to die on the cross(most horrible death known at that time) for me? And ytd i felt that god was saying to me, "son i know what you are going through and i just want to thank you for doing my will...it is hard but perserve u must...you are weary come and rest with me..but see what a diff you have made in someone's life.." that is the most impt validation in the universe and i feel is the thing that rejuvenated my soul...

Now i feel ready to go on with choir and my life..who care what the world thinks, who cares what my enemies think...god put me in choir for a reason and that is to spread his love and compassion through his music and make this world a better place...as for the ppl whose lives i have been thrusted into, maybe i may cause you the most pain or trouble but one thing is for sure god has his purpose in that and you just have to stick to it...so to all those out there who feel tired of giving and giving..here's my advice to you..have faith and believe that god will make a way even when there seems to be no way...i forgot that and it took a new believer to remind me of that...shows you how god can work in the most miraculous of ways...

Can't wait for choir to start...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

Greetings from loonyville...hehe..today was a great choir prac although effectively lost my voice but who cares...lots of fun...i was back to my crazy funny self again, havent laughed so much in a long time..ahah...i wonder why...hehe..(agnessa got a bit pissed and all, but hey life isnt perfect) Anyways joey told me that my blog was the total opposite from what i was in school..haah..is that a gd thing? i wonder...but the thing is that i guess that this is just a side of me that few people have truly glimpsed, pity on them though.But i personally feel that everyone has a dark and quiet side hidden down in them no matter how extroverted they may seem to be. We all have that quiet self that is reflected and perhaps from time to time a little bit depressing...muahhaahahahahah...

From young believe it or not, i have been introverted. I was kinda shy around tons of ppl and going up to speak kinda gave me the willies...but i guess you are shaped by the circumstances in which you exist in....haha...i was like exposed to adults more then my peers in my formative years so i guess i learned how to adapt. hah..that's why when ppl tell me that they cant speak because they are too quiet i tell them that it is absolutely rubbish...all you need is a will power and time. Now as you can see me as a living testimony to the power of belief and god...haha...

I've been thinking...my english standard has been falling drastically. In the past i was the bench mark of spoken english...now,(thanks in a big part to MSN) i have become relegated to the lower echelons( pardon my verbosity) AHHHHH!!!!!!!! Oh well, you win some you lose some...hehe....as i always say C'est la vie...

So, i told all you silly ppl out there that i would jinx france...haha...now do you believe me..i am right(as usual). That zidane headbutt was the most exciting part of the match...borefest...haha..pity you fools who stayed up to watch...

RESULTS!!!!!oh well cant say i have done really well and all cause i havent, sucks lah....as yet phy has a potential to get a B but the rest are hopelessly mere passes. My econs was like a D which is like...haiz...my maths C was E and my GP was not as horrible as i expected but still way too lousy to be mentioned....btw..i passed...hehe....sorry if i offend anyone..oh well i guess i can be thankful to god that i didnt die horribly for my tests...passed all so that was kinda good and all...but much work has to be done...hope you all had better luck...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

The end of the hols finally dawns upon us....the WC final...i guess i;m not watching...i only watch matches for 4 reasons..1. i support the team; 2. the teams play exciting football; 3. i hate one of the teams and lastly if friends come over.. so since france and italy are the 2 biggest bores in the soccer world and i hate neither so i guess i skip it...hehe..joga bonito...btw, i support france but hey seeing as how i am a jinx to all teams i support you had better support italy....hah...

i guess last week was like not really a wk of school seeing as in we hardly had any lessons and all so i think i kinda slacked the week away haha...that's just me. Today i went to church and all, really cool cause the pastor spoke on a topic near and dear to my heart abt how leadership can sometimes be a really painful but how god will always be there for us..no matter what and how he can rejuvinate our spirit and make us come back even stronger...hah...

k ppl enjoy the WC final...haha....anyone who knows the score feel free to msg me tml morning...i'll love to know...haha...

un dieu benissent toujours
maybe god bless you always...

vive la france...

haha...5.34 pm, just really glad to be back from yet another long choir prac..i guess i learnt that i have to mantain a certain amount of objectivness on my blog lest i get screwed for that...you kinda nvr know what might happen. Anyway, whatever i say here is merely my opinion and you can agree to disagree..so pls feel free to do so...

Oh well, today's prac was ok wasnt too dreary or anything but just that i am starting to feel really fatigued abt choir..cant wait for xiamen to be over, then the handover. i must say when i first became SC, i had grand dreams for this choir, i wanted to make it an organisation that not only makes the most professional sound but also one that enjoys and loves music for what its worth and not for the fame or recognition it can give you. But, the need for "practicality" soon put a end to it...still i remained dedicated to the cause of helping the choir in the best way i could. However, now i feel placid(is this the right word?...dunno lah) like nothing seems to want to move and all. First is takes up so much of my time by the time i reach home i am dead tired and all, but hey its ok..then i havent got much me time, everything is spent on choir, choir and more choir. I guess to much of anything is not good..Second, i feel that there is little more left more me to do here. I havc done by best and all and that is all i have to offer, hopefully the nxt generation will be able to soar to greater heights and champion for the love of music. Who knows but them what they can achieve...that's kinda not my business anyway..so gd luck...

Moving on, i was thinking back about all those times, i mean fun times i had in sec 4 and j1 where there were no worries whatsoever. It was a time where i really enjoyed life to its fullest, i had everything in my life----friends, family, sports, music, grades and god. I really miss all my friends along the way who help me make that part of the journey all that special for me....thanks for the help and all ....really appreciate it...

A special shoutout to my mentor and dear friend...thanks for all the times we have shared and you are just the person i need to talk to whenever i have problems...you always seem to know when to say the right things and make me feel great...thanks a million..we willl always click no matter how long we are apart...hehe....anyway, when i first saw these words i felt that it was really apt in describing my thanks to you....

I've never been the one to raise my hand, That was not me and now that's who I am. Because of you I am standing tall, My heart is full of endless gratitude, You were the one, the one to guide me through, Now I can see and I believe it's only just beginning. I guess I've learned, to question is to grow That you still have faith, is all I need to know. I've learned to love, myself in spite of me And I've learned to walk, the road that I believe.

haha...apt ah.....oh well may nxt time we can perform this song together..who knows...hey...that would be fun and all...cant wait for the opportunity..God has worked wonders in my life because of you and i really feel blessed and honoured to have the chance to be your friend...thanks...

So hey, its the last leg of the journey and all, i guess i can cling to whatever passion that is left in my tired body and finish it. After that---finito---- whether i might ever return is something that even i cant answer, only god can and whatever his choice i will respect it..

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

HAHA....today choir prac was quite interesting. haha...kwei made a bet with us, if we finished b4 11 he wouldnt slaughter us but hey we managed to pass...i guess we are really improving fast and i think we must really thank god for that...his blessings know no bounderies...

oh well honestly today i have lots on my mind but little i can say out loud..i guess we all have those moments...today after choir prac was an absolute waste of time, we waited for mal and all for so long only to decide that we wouldnt join them for lunch haiz...after i came home, played a little com and then slept from 2.30 till 6.47...did abit of maths at night and only managed to finish part a of my econs essay..shall do the second part tml..wake up early..as usual. ahah..my hols hasnt really ended(in my mind of course) With the WC final looming..i dont think sleep will be on my agenda as yet...but nxt wk the term really starts and i cant say i am not worried abt my work, as you all know my results are horrendous to say the least so i really have to buck up. Choir has proven itself to be a massive distraction but hey i dont mind as long as we enjoy producing music together it is all worth the trouble.

if i am being absolutely honest with you i must say that choir has really changed my life. in sec school i hated being in the band and most of all i hated the commitment that came with it. now i seem to relish the challenge and i think it actually has made me a better person. It has been a tough journey and all. Some of my so called friends have turned against me and made life hell for me, but hey being a leader can be really lonely...i rmb at one time some ppl help emergency meetings in my honour to discuss what to do, and at one time i was really lost and the end was so far away...but i have to say sometimes you just have to stick it and just believe in god as he will place ppl in your life that will help you overcome these probs...

Speaking of choir, i have been allowing myself too many lapses in concentration recently, been really forgetful and showing a lack of discretion, why?---i guess my mind has been filled with too many distractions over the past few days...pmsing and all..so hey cut me some slack..but that is not a valid excuse to be irresponsibl and all but i promise it wont happen again...

today i just feel really sian so i'll stop here...hehe...enjoy friday...or whateva...GP rocks!!!

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always....

Today i shall break from my dreary ranting on life lessons and move on to today, arguable the most sian day of my school year...haha..it started with that silly individual taking up more then 20 mins just to talk abt something that no one seemed interested in...but that person was quite oblivious to the sweating individuals who were absolutely pissed by her droning voice...AHHH>..some ppl just dont get it...oh well i forgive them...

Got back my maths paper...hehe...really bad lah..but oh well not like i expected anything from it...at least i passed...GP was ok...Ms tang was quite ok lah...then came the career fair, which i felt was extremely useless...seeing as i have already decided on my career path...a lawyer..why do i need to know abt how to get a degree in cooking or what not...who cares...certainly not me..But the upside is i ended up hanging out with my choir buds and we had a bomb talking rubbish..hehe...sure beats that lousy talk.

Then 2.30 choir was suppose to start, but who knows how come ppl can be so late on..aiyah actuallly not like it is something new, so hey forget abt it..warm ups took a little longer then i had planned but nvm lah...at least it was quite ok....not a bad job at all...but of course improvement is still in order..but we all have to start somewhere. Anyways, after that we broke up into small grps and went to prac..my grp kinda got the short end of the straw, out of the 6 sops in our grp, 4 had sorethroat, so like what's up with that...haha...then we had testing and all, haha...to say it was a disaster was the understatement of the century but i guess that as long as you can learn from it, it will be worth it...not making sense?...whateva...

sometimes i feel we must all take a step back lah, even though certain things are not to our liking we should be the better man, take the high road and not stoop to their level. Tackfulness is an underated quality that i am sure can help the person better and on top of that, make new friends...

We then moved on to do choreo, kind of hard for me considering i have two left feet..tell my mates back in ZHSS that i was teaching choreo, they would have laughed their heads off..that's how bad i am...hah..so anyway we where doing the choreo but i have to say that today everyone got their stuff pretty fast, just hope they rmb it..but i realised that there is a small prob abt this choir...interested? come look for me on MSN, i'll tell you...everytime i take the choir, i feel really tired...and sian...haha...perhaps it was because of the fiasco the night b4,(btw, thanks, u guys really appreciate it) but what ever the reason was i felt really shag. DJ shouted at the choir for a lack of discretion. I'm on the fence for this one....i dont disagreee with Dj abt the need to have a choir that is focused and using common sense...but on the other hand, we should sometimes relax a bit and take things easily..his outburst was a teeny winny bit scary...but what has to be done has to be done.

After choir i really felt like collapsing...cant wait for hand over, get it all off my hands...it is really kinda not worth it...then at least i can start enjoying life...anyone hear that pls help make this dream come true...well the good thing is that it is only a matter of wks b4 that and if i can bear the poisoned chalice for so long, what is a few more wks....in theory at least....but anyhow, i was really sian and all then i went to dinner with malcolm, beijing 101, yl, yt and bel...didnt regret it cause we had such a great time..laughing and playing..really lightened the mood...thanks guys...and yl sorry i keep suaning you...short can be good as well...hehe...

Oh well that concluded my horrible day..heh..a positive note...hehe....still feeling a bit nuts...but that is a story for another day...i hope you have had a better day i have...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

YO ppl of the world who have just found out my blog...hehe...gd for you....in case you know not who i am, i am a crazy person who just loves to rant abt life...interesting? then read on...

Ytd i talked(actually wrote) abt friends-the types and some of the situations you might find yourself in when dealing with friends. Today, i'll enter a topic which is the bane of most of our existances----confidence, or a lack of it... Confidence, the magical C word, it can make you the most powerful man in the world yet it is something that can make you look like a fool. If properly utilized it can help you to overcome your deepest, darkest fears. When i talk abt confidence, i usually am refering to the faith in something or someone's ability to do something...get my drift? nVm...you'll catch on soon enough...

Now when exactly is confidence gd you may ask....hmm...how shall i put it...firstly, it will help you to get things done more efficiently and well. Why? Simple, the thing is that when you have faith in your own ability you are ten times more likely to start enjoying what you are doing, and if you do so you will definately start to feel your energy rising and your prowless being enhanced...muhahahahhaahahhaahah

secondly, confidence will help you to overcome your problems. this is because when you have faith in your own ability or in someone else's ability then you will feel more at ease. i think it comes from the comfort and the knowledge that that thing will see you through it all...no matter how bad the situation seems..When you are relaxed and at ease, then you are more likely able to perform to the best of your ability.

Lastly, confidence is contagious. If you are confident, it will inspire ppl around you to be confident abt their own abilities. i'm not really sure why, but hey it is like laughter, involves some cheeem bio rubbish...who cares..

How can you bulid confidence? the answer is quite simple really...you must forget yourself and just go wild. allow me to elaborate. the thing that is preventing you from feeling confident is fear. i quote charles Lutwidge Dodgson "If u limit your actions in life to things that nobody can possibly find fault with, then you will not do much" sometimes you just have to have a bit more self belief and you will be amazed how fast you can build your confidence. Alternatively, you can base your confidence on someone who you look up to. For me its god, the omnipresent and most powerful king of king and lord of lords. if you dont believe in him, then place it on a person you respect and trust, maybe your best friend, your parent...who knows...as i said confidence is contagious, everytime you feel small, imagine that person by your side lending you his or her confidence and pushing you on, guiding your every move. Imagine what the person would have done in the situation and do it...that way you will perhaps just find a little more confidence...i guess that is why some performers will look for familiar faces in the crowd so as to calm their nerves and gain confidence. The second thing essential to gaining confidence is to know your stuff well. If you know it well enough then hey, who is to say your are wrong,, just go for it...hehe...

For those of you out there who are still wondering on how to bulid confidence, i can tell you that all you have to do is to have more self belief, do not be afraid of failure-it is better to have tried and failed then to have nvr tried at all...so the only person stopping you from gaining confidence is yourself. I am not saying it is an overnight thing...but if you keep at it, use every opportunity to learn and even more so if there is someone there to help you...ask as much as you can...only then can you be on your way to a new more confident you....haha...rmb...belief is the key to confidence...and it works wonders....

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

Today i have decided to continue on my series of "articles" on life...heehee..i know you must be wondering hey arent you only 17...hah...but i guess i have been through much and read lots of stuff abt it and who knows...maybe i may just have stumbled onto something...who knows...then again you can agree to disagree...no one is stopping you..

TOday's topic is abt friends...like or not these are the people that you spend most of your life with, you laugh with them, cry with them and of course go nuts with them...there are many different type of friends that you can possibly have, some better then others but hey they all help to make your life that little more interesting...

The most basic type, and also the most common type is the aquaintance.. pple who are in your life for some reason or another... but hey they just exist..who knows why..i often refer to them as seaweed, pple who just drift in and out of your lives without much effect. this kind of pple are those you are most probably going to use--be it for fun or for your own devious purposes. Who cares....Go wild.!!!! Chances are these are the pple that are with you because of common interest that's all...

The second type is the good friend, you all have been through some storms together and their presence means something to you. These are ppl that are ready to push you up even when you fall right smack on them, sometimes crushing them in the processs...(HEHEHE...beijing 101, you know who i'm talking abt) These are ppl who are always willing to lend a shoulder when needed and are willing to stand up for you. Sometimes they dont always make it clear to you, but you know that they will be supportive of you regardless the outcome...(or least i hope)

The third type i'll talk abt is your best friends..these are those that are really willing to stick with you through everything in your life..plus you feel totally alright around them. There is nothing under the sun that you cant talk abt and nothing in the world that you two cant share.(telepathy hmm?) I guess some may say that they are your muse, inspiring you to do better and of course share a few laughs along the way. They are also the first to comfort you if something goes wrong. The best thing abt them is they are willing to put you b4 themselves...that's true friendship..the funny thing abt it is best friends usually quarrel lots more then normal friends...why? got it from somewhere so i have no idea...but i think it is because when you two know as much abt each other, you tend to see flaws and stuff that others dont see...who knows....but that being said the truth is most of the time this "quarrels" are abt silly things and nothing really impt, so hey?...Not everyone in the world is lucky enough to have someone like this in their lives..so if you have one, you BETTER treasure it...or else...hehe..

However, the thing is abt this analysis is that it is a model template of sorts...i cant say everyone is like that..but hey most are. One of the worst things to happen to a friendship is when they are pissed at each other. Sometimes, secrets can be awkward even among the best of friends and it is of paramount importance that one is sensitive to hints and all, or else it could really escalate into something. We all are like that sometimes, pissing each other off, but the impt thing is to know when you are and stop...if not, many a friendships i know have been ruined over really silly things...so be careful...very careful..or else regret will become your middle name...

I'm not sure about you, but recently i have been getting this weird feeling like i just need to get away from my friends..spend abit of me time. i myself dont even know how to describe the feeling i have inside of me...kinda funny..even now from time to time i feel that way...disclaimer: i am NOT trying to tell my friends to back off...i'm just saying that it is just one of the feelings in side of me..haiz...dont really know lah...go figure...

At the end of the day, like it or not, friends will always be part of your life and you have got to live with it....or else some ppl may mistake you for not having a social life...(who ah?..i wonder) the best thing abt true friends is that you can be totally yourself around them without fear of repercussion...if not, then you probably shouldnt be hanging out with them...

But rmb the best way to make a friend is to be a good friend first...so answer this..have you been the friend you want others to be?...or have you simply been taking without giving...i wonder....so should you...

hihi....pple out there in the world who have nothing to do....listen to me talk absolutely rubbish. Not many ppl know abt my blog so i can have the liberty of talking rubbish and stuff that i know i can get into alot of trouble for.

went for dinner with friends, had a blast. But came back really flat out, ahha...still managed to do a bit of GP and all. I have been thinking, what makes a person a leader? Are they born or breed? the thing is that things like that will nvr have a correct answer. i honestly guess it is a bit of both. I mean, to be given leadership opportunities from young is definately a plus point but hey says who you cant change overnight..as i have always said, changing a mindset only requires a split second. it is the debating and deliberating that takes tons of time. but it usually isnt that simple. i dont think there is a fixed type of leadership style as there are many different variations of the same thing.

first type is the quite understated leader. i guess the epitome of such a leader is none other then my friend ,Luke sim. he has that confidence abt him that is understated yet everpresent. he kind of inspires confidence in everyone, something that i can nvr hope to achieve.

second type is the dynamic type of leader. he is often awe inspiring and very in your face style. leaders like this i believe are tipped to become heads of societies etc. but the main draw back of such leaders are that they are often arrogant( but the line between arrogance and confidence is far too fine) always self assured, usually pple like them dont have many true friends...

last type is the motivator. always willing to encourage and push ppl on with speeches and are willing to go the extra mile to make others feel special and that they are part of the team-the winning one. the only main drawback is taht pple like these are often dismissed as too frivalous and not taken seriously by their equals...but then no one said leadership was ever going to be easy...haha...

Most ppl are a mixture of some, but we all have predominant traits that associate us with the particular leadership style.. oh yah i forgot those who have absolute no chance at becoming leaders. my msg to them is ....FORGET IT!!!!! you were born to be a follower so stick with it. i know like very bad like that..haha...but who cares i have to be frank..i mean you can train as much as you like, but the truth is that you most probably achieve more as a follower. the types of ppl are too many to name them all. they are not unique to a particular character or anything it is just that they exist...dont know how lah...

i feel that gd leadership is abt knowing how to use your resources to the best. That is why most leaders have little true friends..or for that matter any friends at all...but that is the price for greatness sometimes...manupilation of these resources is sometimes not beyond one's ability...but hey, the job has to be done...whatever the price

haha..leadership although can be cultivated and trained is usually best natural. and it is abt being yourself and confident abt your abilities..even if others arent...screw them..

oh well.....ranting's over....which type of leader are you?...1,2,3 or ABSOLUTE ZERO....wonder and ponder...who knows....hehe...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

depressively arrogant

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA>>>>ENGLAND is OUt!!!! serves them right, told you so, all those out there who still doubt my predicting ability...in your faces!!!!

really bored now at home, nothing to do, no one to talk to, nowhere to go, dont feel like doing homework. What to Do!????!!!!! sian diao....but this is the price for being too free..that's why i am bloggin now...hehe....

choir is going to xiamen in 3 wks cant wait for it. it is really cool!!! i have been to many places in the world with my family, but i guess going with friends is a different thing. fun in different ways, with friends you kinda get go wild while with family you kinda get to spend quality time with them. ..i know this doesnt even make sense but hey, i am nuts rmb..Anyhow, cant wait to sample all the great food and of course buy lots of stuff back to singapore. hope the hotel's nice though, later it is some ooloo place that has bed bugs and all and then when they crawl into my mouth that would be....EWWWWWWW..haha. Just in case you think i am some high mantainence jerk, i must clarify, i am more then ready and able to rough it out. It is just that in china, you can nvr be too sure of this kind of thing, for all you know some ninny that slept the bed you are sleepin in did some "ahem"...who knows....i wont want to find out.

the term officially starts on tues so like i am totally dreading it, i mean with all the homework, and all plus choir aiyah..so sian...haha. Speaking of choir, apparently mr kwei blew his top at the SOPS, lucky i wasnt there..hehe...not my fault really was taking photo in school. but when we finally combined after i came it sounder better, still a little under but better. i guess its time for us to go intensive on the vocal techinque thingy. i guess now what the prob with choir now is that we are just concerned abt pleasing kwei. Like play it safe so that we wont get scolded. cant say i agree with it, but then again i have to be politically correct and say that that is not a bad thing. the thing is why should mr kwei be our sole barometer for how good we are. i believe that every instructor would rather go for quality then quantity, so its better to do 5 bars supremely well, then 10 bars competently...get my drift?

HAha...talking abt musical orientation, i have been doing lots of research on opera recently. May sound old fashion but hey i must do research to improve what. Music illiteracy is one of the ills of our society today, so the more i'm exposed to the better....

finally the last word, suddenly thought of this, carpe diem-seize the day. Hey what have we got to lose anyway....

haha...finally got a blog...how cool is that. i guess i just been living in the social backwaters for too long that all this is suddenly so exciting for me. haha..as my first post i guess i will be crazy. I'll kinda rant and all but hey, i'm new so forgive me..(like i care what you think...haha)

This few days have been quite enlightening. Been like taking really long walks and thinking abt stuff. For a large part of the year my life has revolved round choir and i guess it has really affected my life adversely. I havent got much time to spend with my classmates and my work has suffered significantly. but i guess you win some and you lose some. i have been thinking abt this idea i have always had in my mind since i became the SC. it is to make music for the love of it and our goal as a choir should be geared towards making the best music possible and not to getting the best results. this is something that has been hotly disputed by many ppl. Some think it is not practical..too idealistic. but the thing is, who are you to say things are too idealistic. If i told you 100 yrs ago that there will be a communication web connecting the world you would have laughed at me and called me too naive. BUt hey, look where we are now. Haha...

Enough of choir lah, anyway been doing some thinking on the type of friends i make. Funny though, i realised that all my best friends have all become like second bananas, flunkies and all. funny how things work. Been feeling quite bad abt it anyway. But i guess someone has to take the lead..still...i will work towards changing myself.

GOd...the unknown entity we call heavenly father. i have to say god has done miracles in my life this year. i think the song you raise me up most aptly describes the help he has given me.
" When i am down and oh my soul so weary,
when trouble comes and my heart burdened be
when i am still and wait here in the silence,
until you come and sit awhile with me."
really thankful to him and all. i guess many christians in this world dont really thank god enough for the good times but when obstacles appear, they start blaming god and all saying how he has not helped them. i think that god has his own ways and sometimes we should give him abit more credit and of course follow in his ways. One such way i think is to go to church, praise him and have fellowship with him..not always easy but hey, its worth it.

Finally, how can i miss out the greatest spectacle on planet earth? the world cup. i supported holland but haiz...they are out. Oh well, they are a young team and much to learn they have, in time they will be a force to reckon with and who knows..maybe world champs one day. tonight is Eng Vs Port, should be a good match but i'm rooting for portugal, England reeks...big time..they cant pass the ball well, they cant score goals,they cant create chances...oh well just proves my point that they are a horrible team. Brazil havent been firing on all cylinders but i still fancy them to squeeze past france..hehe...

The really final word, as i have said before, confidence is the key to the future and like it or not we all have to move on with our lives....hehe....but at least god will be there always....



un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always..

shaun lee
rosyth
zhss
ajc
ajchoir
psalm 27:4

let my heartbeat be my heart's cry let me live to serve your call
in my life, Your will be done


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