choir and a funny revelation....

Yo yo...sorry abt ytd blog entry..no emo thing intended..just abit bored so i guess havign a little fun..sadist huh..haha..live with it....oh well...recently i realised i have been like a little more productive then i have been the whole year..so like that's not really much cause i havent been doing anything the whole year..haha..oh well...just talking rubbish...

CAn't believe choir prac finally started again...haha...really cool and fun to see all those choir ppl again..the choir room has really been all too empty these few weeks..but i guess still getting a little used to not being charge..dont get me wrong..i'm not power hungry or anything..but you have to give me time lah..hahah..i promise nxt time i'll just shut up and dont say anything..haha..sorry if i offended anyone..haha..but then again..haha...

to the certain someone..just want to say hang in there...you have been there for me all through the way and i want to thank you..i know it is tough for you...but really perserve...i'll be at your side anytime any day any place..all you need just to ask...dont feel bad abt it...haha...utopian huh...oh well..would say so i guess sometimes worry allows us to cherish all the friends, family and all with us...and to enjoy the gd times even more..haha..kinda i hope...dont think so much abt it...hope you feel better...haha...sorry i have failed to make you feel any better liek make it worst..sorry...i pray everyday that you will go to church one day with me..but i know how difficult it is for you...so sorry...didnt mean to put you in a diff position..its just my hope...but i dont know...maybe its god's will...i hope so...

the funny sitch..haha...talk abt a small world...my god son's cousin is my sec school friend..leonard wong like wth...haha..shocking..haha..but true..oh well haha..proves my theory that everyone is related to everyone..actually not my theory...but hey...haha...sorry so random...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

Empty.....just empty.....

yoyo world...hhaha..realised i have like blogged 27 entries already..haha..cant believe it..today was kinda fun....lessons were ok...and all but i kinda dropped by the choir room after school today...haah..after the GP bridge we all congregated at the choir room...haha..just like old times..i guess ppl do get closer after we win something..human nature...

anyway..emo is the new black...everyone seems to wear it like some fashion statement..cant blame them though..i mean the whole state of things isnt exactly awe inspiring...haiz...the thing is that sometimes you gain friends and sometimes you lose friends that's just life and you have to deal with it...hah...some ppl who are close to you create walls and all..that much is not within our power to control while some walls are broken down with ppl you nvr imagined you would be friends with...but cant help but feel as certain sense of emptiness...life just doesnt seem right...cant really place my finger on it but its just there...so if anyone has the answers pls feel free to beep and tell me..

I mean perhaps its just that...i guess lots of things arent with in the control of us and only in the hands of the lord. you shall reap what you sow..so i guess if you put in effort then the lord will reward you accordingly...so i guess so...my words carry alot of weight..especially to those who i care abt...nvr really thought of it that way..but hey...it happens...it's not anyone's fault...its just that i am now wiser abt how i should phrase things..

Really sorry to a particular someone..sorry today i didnt really pay much attention to you, choosing instead to indulge myself in the merriment of the situaltion...sorry..didnt mean it that way..sorryy...really sorry...

Thus, i give up bloggin lah..cant think of anything to write and just feel so empty..why?...only god knows...i hope you are having a better day then me...

Un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

Danger and treachery lies ahead...but at least we have the now...or do we?

haha...the world recently has become a much nicer place...after dropping FM i realised i have tons of times to study and also pursue all those things that i have been missing for so long..oh well..call me no life lah..but i dont really care..hah..feeling rebelious!!!!haha...sorry pardon my crazy mood today..we had phy timed prac which in my opinion was totally useless considering the whole cohort didnt study for it..i mean like what is the use of stoning for 2 hrs when that time could have been used for the pursuit of other more meaningful endeavours..so i mean it is just so typical of the school to come up with a hair brain idea like taht...but hey maybe it is just me who is not suited to the mundane "challenges" of school life..ahha..so sue me...regardless... i still feel more free then i have been in a long while..should have dropped FM a long time ago..

Anyway moving on cause i have only 10 mins to blog before i retreat into my shell of mugging..sucks but what to do...not my fault i have to study..haha..actually it is but hey cut me some slack. The events of the past few days have convinced me beyond a shadow of doubt that no one, no matter how seemingly angelic on the outside, is perfect. Cant say i havent seen it coming but i mean it was one of those things that you kinda hoped wouldnt happen..but it did...i felt he really lost it that day and it really scared me..all the veil of happiness and optimism lifted and so like i really couldnt believe my eyes...this i believe sets the tone for the nxt year..i have always stressed to my closer friends the importance of seeing the signs and dealing with them...but guys for once take heed..if you all continue on this path you are all digging your own graves...then when it is time to regret then its kind of too late right?

A certain someone once told me that ignorance is bliss...on a personal note i believe that is absolutely rubbish(no offence)...but i guess that it is because i have usually been in the know how and the forefront of matters for so long..not knowing will kill me...haah...but more imptly...if you are ignorant to the prob then it is impossible to rectify the prob...if so when the thing hits you, you will be in such shock and horror that i fear will be too great for you all to bear..pls i am appealing to you as a friend dont do that...on the same topic of ignorance..i recently had the misfortune of lecturing someone on the lack of know how and information..apparently he has not learnt his lesson...(ps. you know who you are..better buck up or else...the end is nigh..) anyway..you guys have the knowledge and of course the advice you need to salvage the situation..but most imptly know that the lesser ppl know abt it the better....be careful of who you tell ..you nvr know...

My only advice(may not be gd but its a long shot) is see it not as an obstacle but as a means of getting to the goal; the greater good. Do not reject it, in fact try as best possible to embrace it and make it part of your big family. This way, the link will be re-established and the survival will be ensured...dont see it as the end of the road for it is not until you make it so...it is not over till its over..so fight on..but dont let it bother you as much as it is worrying...the potential is immense dont ruin it...

Lastly, just like to remind you guys that as much as all this is dark and gloomy..the thing is that at least you all have the now to be thankful for...all your friends and family by your side...isnt that wonderful? So treasure that...whatever you have..recharge your batteries for what will be no doubt an ardous journey...but at the end i hope you all will end up with more then just medals...you will end up with friends, and most imptly...your individuality...and god...

i digress but i been thinking recently, i really hope and wish that my family members can come to the saving knowledge of christ..haiz...but i understand their difficulties and all and i wont force them but i'll pray for them every night and day..till the day that god sees fit, they will enter the kingdom of god..hopefully sooner rather than later...

ps just like to thanks all for giving me presents...really appreciate it...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

Farewell....god son, best friend, two nephews...friends...happiest i have been...starai con me

yoyo the world...hehe...haha..today was the farewell, marking the end of a whole week of frantic activity of buying presents and tuition..hehe..ok kinda no link but who cares this is my blog not yours so live with it...k..joking..haha...oh well today's farewell was really fun, zkai's house is really nice and the flat screen tv was kinda cool, oh well...but i guess you can tell he is the rich kind anyway..hah..i mean it in the best way possible..the function room was really small but really cool cause it was underground like under the pool or something and then it was like besides a pond where there were fishes and all....haha...the J1s "single voice" sounded really good...congrats for a job well done..not bad at all..really impressed...just underlines the truth that mr kwei has been saying that you all have tons of potential..ahha..

oh well, i guess the really cool part was all the presents..hehe..got so many of them today and i was like WOW!!!!! but not to hao lian or anything..it is just that i am really thankful fro all those who got me something..thanks alot..i know i didnt like get all of you stuff but i was really broke...sorry..i'll make it up to you somehow..not intentional but just a victim of circumstances...just like to take this opp to thank 4 ppl...3 crazy ppl and one really nice nephew...to the 3 crazy ppl my god son, zhan yong, my nephew zkai and jk...what in the world were you thinking???!!!!crazy ppl who are just nuts..!!! i tell you when i heard of what you guys got me i really was like shocked...to my god son, you are siao one..i really dont know how to repay you cause you got me such an amazingly super gift that i am just speechless...now i am eternally in your debt..haha..no lah..kidding...family dont keep score...right?hope so anyway..but i tell you i am really touched...to my nephew zkai...boy you can really spend money...more imptly you gave me something that i really needed...a clock and the glasses..really nice and cool thanks man...as i said you are one of the nicest nephews an uncle can have...haha...hope you liked my gift i think that frog really looks like you...in a cute way..haha..the grin is classic you..haha...stay happy k..but i think hor you need to like start practicing the kissing GW...then you will have experience lor...haha..last of the siao ppl, JK you hor can really surprise ppl when you want to...totally unexpected...but the funny thing is i got something similar for you...haha..oh well..but i must comment that you have no skill when it comes to pealing of price tags..i know how much it costs lor..haha...but that just makes me feel even more touched that you actually bothered to buy it for me...thanks so much bro...especially after how i have treated you..thanks...hehe...i hope you like it as it represents one of the biggest triumphs in AJ choir and it is to signify how you can scale greater heights if you put your heart to it...how can i forget the newest edition to my family...GW...hehe...haha big mama..dont feel bad abt your gift..the datou thing is SUPER CUTE!!!!!!! haha..really loved it..your card was nicer the zkai's one lor(sorry zkai..no offence)...haha..cause you wrote it out, your handwritting is beautiful but a little small, your uncle is getting a little old and short sighted...hehe..so hey..haha....but tis alright..i feel that you are a real cool nephew other the the fact that you are like gossip central

As mark rightly said the time ahead will me full of tribulations but i feel that at least for now we can enjoy each others company and all..that's all that matters i guess...living in the now..but dont forget that everyday will have its own set of prb...so dont worry too much...it will come when it comes...haha....i dont really feel like sad at this farewell because for me it is just temporary..we will be coming back for sectionals anyway and our heart will always be with AJ choir no matter where we go..hehe..that counts for something...so like see you on 17th on aug...for prac..dont be late...sorry..couldnt resist...anyway...for those of you wondering what starai con me means..it's a song by pavarotti..and it means you will be with me..which is what you guys will always be..with me where ever i go...to england or to africa...the memories i will keep even long after we have lost contact is priceless....to my god son and nephews...todo la pa familia...everything for the family...



un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

Evil and high....oh well...haha...

yo yo ppl...evil huh...hahah....Draco malfoy..popular and evil....hahahahaahahahaha....as usual..but hey ok enough of crap...haha..today went to the festival of praise..WOW the atmosphere was electric..it was like everyone was jumping and dancing and singing..i sang some otherworldly notes...like i could reach alto for one..WOW>...god was really there and it was so worth the 3 hr wait...haha..

Anyway...just got a new nephew..like haha...really cool but funny..rmb in sec school got a few silly girls like to play family and all and i used to reject them like wth...haha..but now i feel differently abt it..hah..good opp to bond with ppl..oh well at least the ppl i am family with are not sickening bimbos who irritate me to death..oh well...i guess it has to do with the ppl...haha...

Still havent got the opp to buy presents for ppl..like i am so going to die..but i will find a way to do it...must lah...so many pple ot buy for...JK, Chi hong, MAlcolm, DJ, BEl, zinuan, huiying and xinyi..plus so many J1s..my god son and god nephew...GW..aloy..Ht...hmm..still got some more but my brain is too warped now to think..so sorry..yah the J2s as well, yl, hq and lala..haha...going to be absolutly broke..oh well..once in a lifetime so i guess a little less capital wouldnt hurt...

k lah...i'm tired oh well..bloggin is tiring..haha..the item is yet done...OH MY!!!!!....just hope i have the voice to carry it...but hey god will provide..hehe...rock on ppl...Aj choir will always be in my heart..and you will see alot more of me then you think...i'll be back...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

WHy do we but on a show everyday.......good?

yo yo ppl of the world...haha...life's been cool for me...been quite slack and all a little tuition here and there..oh well the usual..its amazing how i can have tuition for all my subjects..seeing as in i dropped one sub..haha..still quite proud of it..GP homework's a killer..but it's really my fault for slacking too often..so have to mug lor..haha...till late..but who cares...

REcently, i suddenly realised that alot of ppl are just putting on a show in front of everyone..dont get me wrong i am not as silly as to believe that we all show emotional honesty..it is just that it is shocking how many ppl are doing it..i mean everyday we all say hi and bye but in our hearts we habour this amazing amount of angst hatred and all...i guess i have had the "priviledge" of seeing ppl for who they truly are...i am not saying that they are totally at fault cause sometimes the circumstances call for it...call me sadist..but i find it quite funny how sometimes ppl can be so ignorant and not realise the things that are going on under their noses..myself included..hah..some of the ppl are really not who they seem to be...hah..didnt know Zkai was so scandalous..galavanting off to timbaktu with his "ahem"..oh well..i guess now that he is clay aiken he has the liscence to do that..hehe..the nerve of some ppl...

There were certain undercurrents which i was unaware of but they seem a little scary now i think of it...how can so much be happening without it being evident on the surface...haha..oh well call me outdated...

Anyway..recently choir ppl have been posting abt how they all miss xiamen and all that..haha..oh well cheer up ppl..its not like the seniors are all dead and all...oh well some are ..but i digress. Didnt choir had so many emo ppl who love to wallow in their own misery. Cant blame them sometimes i myself have taken that road all too many times. It is ok to feel sad, happy and all those emotions i guess but to keep harping on the negative just to gain attention is hardly the way to go..you will be surprised how many ppl have this prob..all you need to do is to look hard enough and you will see them...

Haiz....the farewell is nxt sat at Zkai's house..promised i would trash it..haha..sorry..it is good cause it is near my house...saves me the trouble of going too far..not really looking forward to it for several reasons. 1. i havent bought any presents and seeing my schedule nxt week it seems that i will have to give a IOU to so many ppl..sorry..kidding alh..sure buy one ....2. there is something that i have to do by then which i have not had the chance to do at all..1!!!!!!!AHHHHH!!!...aiyah..i so goood..dont need so much time one lah...1hr should surfice..actually that's all that;s wrong witht me going to the farewell...i'm not sad cause i know that i will be back in Aj choir for many more months to come(sorry to those ppl who hate me...that's just too bad) ahah...hopefully i will get the opp to go to pattaya with them nxt year but i know as long as it is humanly possible i will go back for prac and all..haha..carolling will be fun..just dont let certain..ahem ppl conduct can liao...oh well...for me it is certainly not the end of the choir journey so there is nothing to be sad abt..haha..plus there is always MSn...cool sia...

hah...running out of words to say...i thought i was emo..but i guess for every depressively arrogant person in the world there are ten more crazed individuals haha...just try to stay happy...the world wont end just yet...not until god says so....haha...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

A huge burden off my shoulders.....haha...sorry guys i really tried...but sometimes its not up to me....

YO yO ppl of the world..haha..last time i wrote i was a little angsty and all..but hey i am so over it..as usual. Today i am in high spirits as i finally put my biggest worry to rest..my Fmaths..finally managed to drop it so glad its over. I have been contemplating it for so long and worked so bloody hard with little results and all..so i guess it is really WOW...haha....sorry to all my friends in F maths though..hq and the 4 from my class..really sorry i had to do this but i hope you understand i have my own difficulties and all really sorry that i am unable to continue with you all on this journey, i tried really hard but it is really beyond my ability to do so. So i am sorry...hope you guys excel and do well in the future....all the best...

With the poisoned chalice now lifted i have been thinking alot abt god and all...i realised that there are so many things in my life that i dont have control over, like my friends, my enemies or anything of this sort, even my work is beyond my control...haha...i have learnt that if we rely on our own abilites and understanding there can be only one result...total and utter failure...haha..pesismistic you may say..haha...but it is the truth..It is a common mistake among the christians and non christians alike to tend to want to get their life in order before they turn to god..but that is the way of the world...that is the voice of Satan...reject that...the truth is that when you get your relationship with god in order everything else in your life will fall in place...i must really confess that i havent really been giving my life totally and wholeheartedly to god, and i pray that you all out there dont make the same mistakes..but god is good and has been helping me non the less and i guess you can say he has taught me, in his own way, an important lesson about life and trusting in him for everything. The details are fuzzy but hey, if you come talk to me maybe i may just be able to recall some..hehe..who knows...

I have learnt much over the past two years in JC about the lord, i feel that he is speaking to me more then before and for which i am thankful...haha...he has guided me in so many ways this year and all and sometimes i just dont thank him enough or give him credit when it is due..to be totally honest, there were times this year where i doubted him, i know that was bad so dont folow my example..ever...hehe...

Praise be to god for he has helped me remove the burden from my back and now i have gotten new friends to continue with me on this journey of life...haha...you win some and you lose some i guess...haha...the lord is gracious and he really provides in times of need...

Still kinda feel a bit weird from the lack of choir pracs...but now i am much closer to choir ppl around and they are like all Hi Hi kind of thing..the morale is really high now for which i am happy and proud of..haha...cool lah..cant wait for the VC concert..chance to see the juniors again..hehe...for some bizarre reason feel kinda bonded to them..oh well..some things cannot be explained...haha...today was quite weird, me, mal, bel and aloy just stood outside point X and started chatting abt choir and stuff...kang seng was there too..hehe...oh well it was queer but certainly lots of fun...haha..haha..oh yah zhi xiong is still as blur as ever...haha...sorry couldnt resist...just ytd was talking to zy, gerald and qw abt how weird choir ppl are gettin...oh well...it happens every year but this year there are just too many ppl who are weird..we have the air con, fei yu qing, jug head, celine dion, fantasia, clay aiken, sarah brightman...and the stalker..so like wth...haha....oh yah still got xiao xiong...haha...oh well...i guess we have the whole assortment of weird ppl..but that's what makes Aj choir so special and fun...

The divide between the head and the rebel is getting worse i fear, reconciliation doesnt seem to be anywhere on the horizon, i fear the last chance was left behind in xiamen..sad lah...if they could work together things could have turned out so much better..but arrogance is a dangerous tool i guess...but of course being too humble impedes one's progress as well...balance..but who cares..

Lastly, like to give a shout out to my god son...yo tom..you have really got to lighten up..haha..dont take my words to seriously and all...everyone makes mistakes and you just have to learn from them dont need to brood..your a great guy...thanks for all the support since b4 xiamen really appreciate it...haha..see ya around...and at the concert...haha...stop being so perverse....bad influnce..haha..kidding lah...

un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...

shaun lee
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zhss
ajc
ajchoir
psalm 27:4

let my heartbeat be my heart's cry let me live to serve your call
in my life, Your will be done


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