Monday, July 17, 2006 @3:16 PM
An apology....that should have been said a long time ago...To:whoever it may concern...(u know who you are)i just want to say i'm sorry...for everything..for wasting your time when you should have been using it to study with my stupid problems; For not being a good enough friend to you in your times of need. i guess i am just lousy at comforting ppl, only good at breaking their spirits..for that i am sorry. I remember there was a time not to long ago when everything was fine and all..we were best of friends and there was nothing in the world we couldnt talk abt..but now because of my immense stupidity that is no longer so. Einstein is right..."there are two infinite things..the universe and human stupidity, i'm not so sure abt the former." For all the silly things i have done u nvr judged or hated me, neither did you find me a burden..but i guess i am just childish..as what my pastor said...bearing of grudges and being angry over silly things..i guess i have to be a little more childlike..forgiving and humble...I nvr meant to scold you at any point in time and sometimes my anger can get the better of me and i will say things i dont exactly mean. Maybe i am wrong but, i wont blame you even if you hate me and all, it is justified as i probably deserve it. Words cannot sufficiently express how sorry i am...how bad i feel...i didnt mean half the things i said to you, honesty is important but what i did was to make you feel bad and that was not what friends should do..not now not ever. Manipulation is a sin and there is no excuse in the world that can justify such an action. Please dont ever think that i hate you or am disappointed in you, because i am not. Your abilities leave nothing to be desired and i think you will grow and learn in time. In fact if there is anyone who i should be disappointed in, it is myself. You have done nothing wrong. I am really at a lost for words now and i pray that you will be able to get the gist of what i am saying...words hurt and i know that..but yet i used them carelessly...i'm sorry..Lastly, i just want you to know that i will support you always and be willing to help you regardless the consequences...i dont mind..but i pray you tell me some of your probs and give me a second chance to be a friend to you...i'm sorry...sincerely hope that you can forgive me...but if you dont want to be my friend i totally understand...un dieu benissent toujoursmay god bless you always...
