Wednesday, August 02, 2006 @9:24 PM
A huge burden off my shoulders.....haha...sorry guys i really tried...but sometimes its not up to me....YO yO ppl of the world..haha..last time i wrote i was a little angsty and all..but hey i am so over it..as usual. Today i am in high spirits as i finally put my biggest worry to rest..my Fmaths..finally managed to drop it so glad its over. I have been contemplating it for so long and worked so bloody hard with little results and all..so i guess it is really WOW...haha....sorry to all my friends in F maths though..hq and the 4 from my class..really sorry i had to do this but i hope you understand i have my own difficulties and all really sorry that i am unable to continue with you all on this journey, i tried really hard but it is really beyond my ability to do so. So i am sorry...hope you guys excel and do well in the future....all the best...With the poisoned chalice now lifted i have been thinking alot abt god and all...i realised that there are so many things in my life that i dont have control over, like my friends, my enemies or anything of this sort, even my work is beyond my control...haha...i have learnt that if we rely on our own abilites and understanding there can be only one result...total and utter failure...haha..pesismistic you may say..haha...but it is the truth..It is a common mistake among the christians and non christians alike to tend to want to get their life in order before they turn to god..but that is the way of the world...that is the voice of Satan...reject that...the truth is that when you get your relationship with god in order everything else in your life will fall in place...i must really confess that i havent really been giving my life totally and wholeheartedly to god, and i pray that you all out there dont make the same mistakes..but god is good and has been helping me non the less and i guess you can say he has taught me, in his own way, an important lesson about life and trusting in him for everything. The details are fuzzy but hey, if you come talk to me maybe i may just be able to recall some..hehe..who knows...I have learnt much over the past two years in JC about the lord, i feel that he is speaking to me more then before and for which i am thankful...haha...he has guided me in so many ways this year and all and sometimes i just dont thank him enough or give him credit when it is due..to be totally honest, there were times this year where i doubted him, i know that was bad so dont folow my example..ever...hehe...Praise be to god for he has helped me remove the burden from my back and now i have gotten new friends to continue with me on this journey of life...haha...you win some and you lose some i guess...haha...the lord is gracious and he really provides in times of need...Still kinda feel a bit weird from the lack of choir pracs...but now i am much closer to choir ppl around and they are like all Hi Hi kind of thing..the morale is really high now for which i am happy and proud of..haha...cool lah..cant wait for the VC concert..chance to see the juniors again..hehe...for some bizarre reason feel kinda bonded to them..oh well..some things cannot be explained...haha...today was quite weird, me, mal, bel and aloy just stood outside point X and started chatting abt choir and stuff...kang seng was there too..hehe...oh well it was queer but certainly lots of fun...haha..haha..oh yah zhi xiong is still as blur as ever...haha...sorry couldnt resist...just ytd was talking to zy, gerald and qw abt how weird choir ppl are gettin...oh well...it happens every year but this year there are just too many ppl who are weird..we have the air con, fei yu qing, jug head, celine dion, fantasia, clay aiken, sarah brightman...and the stalker..so like wth...haha....oh yah still got xiao xiong...haha...oh well...i guess we have the whole assortment of weird ppl..but that's what makes Aj choir so special and fun...The divide between the head and the rebel is getting worse i fear, reconciliation doesnt seem to be anywhere on the horizon, i fear the last chance was left behind in xiamen..sad lah...if they could work together things could have turned out so much better..but arrogance is a dangerous tool i guess...but of course being too humble impedes one's progress as well...balance..but who cares..Lastly, like to give a shout out to my god son...yo tom..you have really got to lighten up..haha..dont take my words to seriously and all...everyone makes mistakes and you just have to learn from them dont need to brood..your a great guy...thanks for all the support since b4 xiamen really appreciate it...haha..see ya around...and at the concert...haha...stop being so perverse....bad influnce..haha..kidding lah...un dieu benissent toujoursmay god bless you always...
