Saturday, August 05, 2006 @7:48 PM
WHy do we but on a show everyday.......good?
yo yo ppl of the world...haha...life's been cool for me...been quite slack and all a little tuition here and there..oh well the usual..its amazing how i can have tuition for all my subjects..seeing as in i dropped one sub..haha..still quite proud of it..GP homework's a killer..but it's really my fault for slacking too often..so have to mug lor..haha...till late..but who cares...
REcently, i suddenly realised that alot of ppl are just putting on a show in front of everyone..dont get me wrong i am not as silly as to believe that we all show emotional honesty..it is just that it is shocking how many ppl are doing it..i mean everyday we all say hi and bye but in our hearts we habour this amazing amount of angst hatred and all...i guess i have had the "priviledge" of seeing ppl for who they truly are...i am not saying that they are totally at fault cause sometimes the circumstances call for it...call me sadist..but i find it quite funny how sometimes ppl can be so ignorant and not realise the things that are going on under their noses..myself included..hah..some of the ppl are really not who they seem to be...hah..didnt know Zkai was so scandalous..galavanting off to timbaktu with his "ahem"..oh well..i guess now that he is clay aiken he has the liscence to do that..hehe..the nerve of some ppl...
There were certain undercurrents which i was unaware of but they seem a little scary now i think of it...how can so much be happening without it being evident on the surface...haha..oh well call me outdated...
Anyway..recently choir ppl have been posting abt how they all miss xiamen and all that..haha..oh well cheer up ppl..its not like the seniors are all dead and all...oh well some are ..but i digress. Didnt choir had so many emo ppl who love to wallow in their own misery. Cant blame them sometimes i myself have taken that road all too many times. It is ok to feel sad, happy and all those emotions i guess but to keep harping on the negative just to gain attention is hardly the way to go..you will be surprised how many ppl have this prob..all you need to do is to look hard enough and you will see them...
Haiz....the farewell is nxt sat at Zkai's house..promised i would trash it..haha..sorry..it is good cause it is near my house...saves me the trouble of going too far..not really looking forward to it for several reasons. 1. i havent bought any presents and seeing my schedule nxt week it seems that i will have to give a IOU to so many ppl..sorry..kidding alh..sure buy one ....2. there is something that i have to do by then which i have not had the chance to do at all..1!!!!!!!AHHHHH!!!...aiyah..i so goood..dont need so much time one lah...1hr should surfice..actually that's all that;s wrong witht me going to the farewell...i'm not sad cause i know that i will be back in Aj choir for many more months to come(sorry to those ppl who hate me...that's just too bad) ahah...hopefully i will get the opp to go to pattaya with them nxt year but i know as long as it is humanly possible i will go back for prac and all..haha..carolling will be fun..just dont let certain..ahem ppl conduct can liao...oh well...for me it is certainly not the end of the choir journey so there is nothing to be sad abt..haha..plus there is always MSn...cool sia...
hah...running out of words to say...i thought i was emo..but i guess for every depressively arrogant person in the world there are ten more crazed individuals haha...just try to stay happy...the world wont end just yet...not until god says so....haha...
un dieu benissent toujours
may god bless you always...
