Sunday, September 17, 2006 @6:02 PM
Weird dreams...opera singers....what do you make of it...yo yo, hahaah...how has the world been for you all... i guess it wasnt so bad ytd(note the emphasis on not so bad), but hey it was an improvement. i did something that i should have done a long time ago, but glad i did it...but still it doesnt explain the weird dreams i have been havin lately...about leaving and losing it all...i guess it still weighs on my mind....horrible dreams that keep repeating..the leaving then the loss, over and over again..worst still...i dont even know the reason, just that i should not doubt....how do you solve a prob that you dotn know the root cause of...trust me the worst kind of truth is the half truth, where you know only specks of information...nothing in the world can be worst then that...really...nothing...so stick it to me...plus by not telling you are not giving me an opportunity to defend my case or clear up any misunderstandings...if misunderstandings could be figured out by the individual alone, then the wouldn't be called misunderstandings right? I know i promised that i wouldnt breach this topic and all..my only hope is that you read this and understand, i am not doubting you or anything even close..but your actions have a greater and more detrimental effect then you think....the direct tell all approach is better...if it is difficult for you just say, at least i can be there to share the burden or pain, now we are both bearing different burdens and the load is twice as heavy this way, however that makes sense. If you mantain silence you are not only hurting yourself but also the ppl around you who care...facing the prob head on is the only way to solve it not drown yourself in academics or what not....remember....but most imptly,if there is anything that i can do to change the situation pls tell me...i maybe a bigger help then you know,...Anyway, enough of all this...i just wanted to say the truth for what it is, not because i do not believe in our friendship(if there is any left) but because i believe that there is something worth fighting for..so the ball is in your court, you can share and we'll overcome whatever it is together or you can hold me at emotional ransom...i'll give you time...but that doesnt mean that it doesnt hurt me to do that...that is something i believe you understand...Sorry...on to my second topic...i have recently been doing research on several opera singers present and past...haha..found out lots of interesting stuff about them and of course became fans of several of them...haha....but i must say the most notable one is 19 yr old soprano, Hayley Westenra...like wow that girl can sing good...her control in classical pieces is amazing for someone so young..her benedictus is wow....she can reach high A effortlessly...like wow...and her voice is super calm...but then on the other spectrum, charlotte church has become quite a whore..i mean seriously, she smokes and says F*** at every possible juncture of her life...scolds her mother and all taht..so i mean what's up with taht..i guess purity is something that cannot be retrived once lost....so hmm...something to ponder....un dieu benissent toujoursmay god bless you always...
